Freedom is never free

Luke 15: ¹⁷"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! ¹⁸I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. ¹⁹I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' ²⁰So he got up and went to his father.

That's it. I've had it. So sick of staying where I'm not supposed to be(I don't mean my house). I'm stagnant. Why do I allow myself to be bound by the things that You have already set me free from? I was bought for a 'no-such-thing-as-a-discount' price! It's time to shake off the things that shackle me. But how, GOD? I don't know what to do in the midst of all this confusion. My priorities are messed up. All I can ask is, 'Help GOD'..
And then you answer:

"You need to take action. Just wanting to remove the idols is not enough. I will give you the strength you need."

How true.

It's a time for idol burning..
a time for removing that which draws me away from God
a time for destroying that which makes me think higher of myself than I should
a time for destroying that which causes me to sin
a time for letting go
a time for restoration

What are my idols?
Computer gaming
Studies (rarely but still can be one at times)
Friendships (when I find my rest in friends instead of God)

Sorry LORD, for my rebellion, disobedience, idolatry and all the works. Where would I be without you. I have made no difference apart from You. All those have prevented from becoming who I should be. It's delayed the blessings of GOD long enough! Help me to destroy my idols and set me free from the chains I have bounded myself to once again, and by Your grace and the power of Your Holy Spirit alone will I be able to victorious. I believe in Your faithfulness. Amen

An Inspiration for my undergraduate thesis

Inspired Thesis Topic
Monkey powered turbines. Monkeys eat mostly from the waste in UKM, hence it's kind of like a waste-to-energy process.. Instead of causing so much trouble they might as well be put to some good. Start training one monkey and things get easier from there.

Assumptions:
Monkey see, monkey do

Execution:

1. Monkey caught.
2. Monkey trained.
3. Monkey put through forced labor.
4. Monkey eats food from rubbish dump.
5. Monkey swings from turbine to turbine, in cycles(more monkeys generate more cycles)
6. Weight of monkey pulls the turbine blades downwards.
7. Inertia gets the next blade up to position.
8. Trainer gets out his cane to motivate the monkeys
9. Step 5 to 8 is repeated until the monkeys get tired and go to sleep
10. Turbine in rotation generates current by virtue of an AC/DC motor.
11. Rotary energy is converted to electricity. Power is distributed throughout UKM
12. Everyone is happy =) (except for our less evolved creatures)
    

Pros:
It's green energy! Well, more like brown.
It's free once you cover the initial cost
Higher 'security' in UKM.
It's fun to watch! Duh

Cons:
Getting the monkeys to work punctually.
Monkey rights activists protest against unethical treatment of monkeys.. Like c'mon, it's just a bunch of monkeys
Risk the monkeys going on an employee boycott/riot.. After all, monkey see monkey do!

More Than Knee Deep

God, I'm far from Your presence. I'm more than knee deep in a whole load of trouble. The waters are rising. I'm in a lot of trouble and can't turn anywhere. It's just a whole load of responsibilities. As of now, I'm at wits end when it comes to prioritising these responsibilities. I want to hear Your voice; what You have to say about my life.What do You have to say, Holy Spirit? What do I need to set straight? Am I backsliding? Is this what it's like? I'm confused! Am I hearing it, yet turning a deaf ear towards it?

Are You calling out to me, yet I cannot hear because of sin in my life? I need to know Your will, for if I don't know Your will I cannot obey it. If I cannot obey, I sin. If I sin, I cannot hear. And the cycle goes on. I need your flood of grace, more than knee-depth.

What do I do? (at this point I don't know, really)

Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

(and then I hear from You. But I've 'forgotten' how to seek Your kingdom. GOD I'm so lost. I don't know what to ask for to get myself out of this hole. All I know is, Help Me LORD.)

Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

Fallen ON love..

I fell on love... in this post's context, love is and only is the toilet floor.

WELL. I NEEDED A CATCHY BLOG TITLE TO GET READERS RIGHT. Hire me, all ye ad companies!

OKOK.. so the story is; Last Sunday, I woke up earlier than anticipated (my alarm was set to 6.30, but my mom got me up at 6.20) .. I hit the showers of course. I was back-up vocalist in FGA Serdang Community Center that morning, it was the opening day and also my first time back-up singing for a church... so it was rather unnerving..

- at this point you may or may not guess why I fell -

My alarm went off. So without my glasses on I went back to my room to turn it off in case my brother wakes up. UNPAID KINDNESS!
- at this point you may think I fell when I tried to get into my room. No. -

So anyway, I turned it off and came out at a rather moderate velocity. I fell. My chin knocked the edge of the floor tile, which was elevated above the toilet floor.. So embarassing. Good thing I wasn't at camp or UKM or something.

Wish I had a camera to take a photo of my first chin injury.
Nothing much apart from that really. Just:
Two bruises
Minor chest trauma resulting in cough
and probably a thousand other dead cells...

So I fallen on love.
haha.

Locations of Love

I can say, it is well. Well with my soul that He has made all things beautiful. Well with my soul that all things are in His time. Well with my soul that His living word endures forever..

Love is patient. Love is kind. Love is not self-seeking. Love is GOD.

And I sometimes wonder, why do I struggle so hard to find love in all the wrong places, when I know I have the one true source?
Why do I settle for second best sometimes? (I'm not only talking about relationships; it applies to everyday decisions)

Why is it so hard to love (obey) Jesus?

9"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.

at this point after posting, I find the title quite the acronym. LoL.

This is what the LORD says -

Israel's King and Redeemer, the LORD almighty:

I am the first and I am the last;
apart from me there is no God.

Who then is like me? Let him proclaim it. Let him declare and lay out before me what has happened since I established my ancient people,
and what is yet to come--
yes, let him foretell what will come.


Amen! =)