Charitability

How would you feel if for the first time,you invested so much effort to help the less fortunate,being naive in the other details, and someone just STEPS IN and says, NO, and you can't do nothing about it.

It's like, you want to donate rm5 to a poor person, but, that person says, "one day u will need that rm5... You have to keep that rm5! otherwise I'll...."
All you want is to be helpful, and someone just comes in and ruin everything.

[Insert Your Response]
eg. I would push that person aside, and say "Here, take this rm5 too, if you're so dissatisfied with my charity, oh so holy being. Put your money somewhere other than your mouth"

PAS (2)

come to think about it, three posts ago I said I wanted GOD to teach me how to love and be hated. And now that he's training me, I'm being indifferent.

I must really be a letdown to GOD. 'Uncool'. Still, God is love and love won't leave me. So what if I'm hated? He loves me. You too.

PAS

Perpetually-Annoyed-Syndrome.. Anyone relating to this?

It's seriously irritating when someone doesn't treat you with the respect that an individual deserves. So what about it? Do you swallow it in, pretend nothing ever happened? Do you unleash the impending wrath upon your oppressor(s)? I'm the latter persona. Sometimes I wish I knew how to... , no, I definitely want to be able to correct lovingly. But love is difficult. "Yeah, tell me about it", says my inner self. Is it because of my own lack of patience, a fault of my Creator? Nah, that's not possible.
Two perspectives in this scenario:


1. the IRRITATED:
Simply, IRRITATED LIKE MAD LAH!!!! It's even more irritating when IRRITATOR is someone you are close to. (Note that I didn't use the term love). NOTABLY when that someone is a CHRISTIAN. Do this, do that. You shouldn't say this, that's a badword! If you truly love GOD you would listen to so and so speak instead of spending your time doing useless things like you're doing now. I can't rely on you, you're so unreliable. You are facing all this issues because of that sin lah, there, you remember that sin?

CUT THE CRAP,you self-righteous, guilt-piling (insert irritating person here)..
I'm already feeling judgemental at this point, so I'll leave it as it is.


2. the IRRITATOR:

Fill in the blanks, you who regard yourself to be here. I dareth not conclude this is how you feel: BUT the following probably is, 'well maybe':

Simply, IRRITATED LIKE MAD LAH!!!! It's even more irritating when IRRITATOR is someone you are close to. (Note that I didn't use the term love). NOTABLY when that someone is a CHRISTIAN. Do this, do that. You shouldn't say this, that's a badword! If you truly love GOD you would listen to so and so speak instead of spending your time doing useless things like you're doing now. I can't rely on you, you're so unreliable. You are facing all this issues because of that sin lah, there, you remember that sin?

CUT THE CRAP,you self-righteous, guilt-piling (insert irritating person here)..
I'm already feeling judgemental at this point, so I'll leave it as it is.


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It feels terrible on either side of the wall. Sigh. Even right now, I'm still feeling as if I've been dealt injustice. JESUS definitely has gone through what I have. What would you do, LORD?

Very

Hard leh..

Love and be hated, or hate love Himself

Matt 10:25 -> It is enough for the student to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master..

You were hated, LORD Jesus, despised by the very people you loved, scorned by the people you saved. As such, make me that way too, that I may be like you. As you have worn a crown of thorns, let me not wear a crown of jewel made by man, for it is dishonouring. Show me the way to wear this painful crown of thorns, and to bear this heavy cross. May I walk as you have walked, like a man without a place to lay his head. Teach me how to love and be hated, so that I may be considered worthy of a place in heaven near to You. Let me not say I love you with words, but hate you by not picking up my cross daily.

and I thought being a Christian was easy.


picture courtesy of www.rosaryworkshop.com

me? worship leader?

if you can so casually describe worship as a lifestyle and not a liturgy, then worship leading isn't about leading a 5 piece band anymore. Will it not be about showing people how to live their lives?

If it's about picking up my own cross, then I'm no worship leader.

**Poof**

Hmm, sometimes when I'm bored, and always right before bedtime, you do a magical appearance within the recesses of my brain. **Poof!!** No idea why, but you just pop up. As my mind's eye sees you, then my mind's lips will kind of smile. Just the kind of smile I want to drop off at your doorstep where you live. I would want to tell you at that very instant, that the smile carries a message, "Hi I thought of you today. I wondered yesterday if you were doing okay. And I hope that tomorrow I'll think of you again."

Aiyo, it's your fault I can't treat my pillow and bolster as cushions, pretending those things were you. Meant to help me sleep, but inadvertently became reminders of you. So I end up lying awake longer than usual, every night. You; the dream that makes we want to stay asleep. Maybe the doctors ought to add these to reasons for insomnia.

I wonder if I suddenly appear in your mind too, sometimes.
Sigh, this love leaves me bleeding, this love won't leave me alone.
I don't have enough blood to spill for you.
Wish I do, but reality reflects that I don't.
At least not yet. The groans and pains of waiting.

Passions

Since I'm so procrastinative, I might as well take some time to list down what I really am passionate about.... brb. gonna play Monopoly first. lol

Hypocritical Christians

If I can't lay down my life now, I may never be able to lay down my life anymore.
If I can't pick up my cross today, I will most likely not pick up my cross tomorrow
If I can't do what God want's me to do now, I may miss out on it forever.
When you compare 50 more years on earth to Eternity in hell, time is indeed of the essence..

Hypocritical Christians, like me, exist everywhere. You claim to know GOD, but deny him by the way you live. Worship Him in spirit, but not in truth. Sing songs of adoration, and yet hate your neighbour. Say you gotta skip class to attend a CF meeting, say you've got to put down a responsibility so you can worship-lead at a concert. Are you serving you, or are you serving God?

Time to wake up, or you and I are going to end up in hell. I don't want to hear the Father saying 'Depart from me, evildoer'.. What's the point of spending Sundays under a steeple,in a church-masquerade-play, and yet you can't spend a cent of your pocket money in helping the needy. What is the church? a museum for saints, or a hospital for sinners?

It's hard to be a christian, but never not worth the cost.